I feel like I should say something about it. I just really don’t want to do that. If anything I would rather forget about it. Pretend it was something that never happened. Just hard to do that when I reminded about it every night.
Not A Morning Person
I think if there was a low part to my day in general it would be waking up. It is the worse time for my moods. Often times very negative in what I feel.
Starting A New Project
I have decided to set aside one hour a day to writing. I set plenty of time aside each day to other ways of expressing myself, but not to writing. It is something that I neglect, because it is so hard for me to do.
Riding the Currents
Some said something to me that really did shake me up. They where talking about what they wanted to be when they grow up. I realized I never really had those fantasies growing up. That if anything my childhood was more about just trying to find a way to survive.
Success is Boring
Today was a depressing day. At least mentally. Physically it was great. So I am a mixed state right now.
The Problem
I think the biggest problem for the long-term is one problem I have never have faced.
Needle and Hay
I said to myself, I am not going to rant in blogs anymore. If I did write a rant, it would be about me. After all there is plenty of hurt and anger in my past to fill a blog for several years before writers block would sit in. But there are times when things outside of myself do tend to make me anger and hurt and I should express those when it happens not bottle it up.
Scared
Well I have achieved the first step. Started my new blogs and made posts on them. But now I face a new problem and it scares me.
What It Means to Me
Often when I search on the internet about transgender, I find myself turning off. What I read and what I know about myself seems to be at odds. That it makes me question if I am transgender or not. But I know am I am transgender for the simple reason that my gender identity is female and my sex is male. So what puts me at odds with what I read and makes me question myself about being transgender?
Introduction
There was a question that came to mind when starting this blog. Why write a blog in the first place? The reason my surprise you or then again maybe not. It would be wrong for me to make assumptions about what may surprise a person reading this blog but I digress here.
